Wow…yesterday was really a bumpy ride. My mood was very hormonally driven, but when I’m right there in the middle of it it feels like the world just completely sucks. I was really depressed yesterday. I looked around and watched my little girl sitting on my husband’s lap as he was playing with her and teaching her to match picture cards to one another. The sun was shining through the window, and Jack Johnson was playing happy surf music in the background. The 5% of me that wasn’t toxic with hormones looked around, saw this nice domestic scene, and knew the problem had to be inside me….there was simply no evidence that my life sucked.
Yesterday was day 8 of my cycle. Too early for ovulation or PMS…so I suspect it may have been a toxin dump issue. This is what I was afraid of, with the CT…that extra estrogen released from fat cells into my system would start wreaking havoc on my mood and relationships. So last night, right after my CT session, I started using Progesterone cream. I had to supplement with Progesterone when I was trying to get pregnant, and then during my first trimester. It was in much higher doses – like 200mg three times a day. This is about 20mg two times a day, and it’s topical so I’m not sure how much actually gets absorbed.
Just got my little sweetie out of bed. It feels great to see her today and the world feels like a benevolent place today. Hormones are extremely powerful things.