This may or may not be a long post.
I think I’m done with this.
I mean, I’ve stuck with paleo and Jack Kruse and I’m not getting better. I can’t just keep doing things that aren’t working. That’s ridiculous.
This morning my fasting blood glucose was 105. About the same (or maybe a little lower) than where I started back in February. I’m still prediabetic.
Stepped on the scale this morning. 184.8. About 7 pounds lighter than where I was when I first started, but not much improvement after the very first few weeks. Same. Same weight. Still fat. Still feel fat and old.
I eat seafood about once a day. Sometimes more. The meat I eat is grass fed or organic. Dalliances are occasional potatoes or rice. Wheat is basically gone from my diet. Sugar was gone for about 6 months, but after seeing very little progress it’s inched its way back in a little. I eat some dark chocolate now and drink alcohol every 2-3 days.
This isn’t working for me. Jack Kruse has a lot to say, and he’s charismatic. He may be brilliant but I can’t understand him and I can’t afford his requisite labs and consults. He slams science, as if it’s his enemy. I’m a scientist. In doing this he disparages my upbringing, my beliefs, and my work.
I did CT. I did it for 2 months. I froze my bloody ass off nearly every day for 2 months. Yes, it helps with your blood sugar…so does exercise and anything else that utilizes stored energy to achieve homeostasis. Exercise is less unpleasant. And CT did NOT help me with mood, hormones, sex drive…it did NOT decrease my appetite…it did NOT result in weight loss. It was a pain in the ass, it was uncomfortable, and it didn’t help. Maybe it helps some people…but does it help them more than riding a bike at a moderate pace for 30 minutes a day? Dunno…no science to back it up. It’s all just anecdotes.
And about those anecdotes. How come there aren’t more success stories? How come the “success stories” part of the Kruse forum doesn’t include many new entries – only one or two a month? I intentionally overlooked this when I started CT, rationalizing that all the success stories would be coming soon…after people had been doing it a while. But where are they? There aren’t many.
I’m sure if anyone reads this I’ll ruffle some feathers. No one wants to hear that their guru is less than perfect. I wouldn’t have wanted to read something like this 2 or 3 months ago.
I think grains are bad. I’m eating a 95% grain free diet. So is my daughter and my husband. I imagine we’ll continue that. I think seafood is generally good. I’ll keep including it in my diet. It’s not a cure-all though. I don’t feel smarter, my memory hasn’t improved, and I don’t have cravings for raw fish heads because “intuitively” my body knows I need more.
I don’t know if adrenal fatigue is real.
I do suspect I’m close to menopause and I plan to continue with BHRT as long as I can afford the $125 a month plus labs and doctor’s visits. Then again, maybe I’ll just start exercising. That used to make me feel great. Is it possible Jack Kruse was wrong about exercise? Maybe I shouldn’t have put it on hold back in February, until further notice.
I’m not happy in my life right now. Anyone who reads this who knows anything about me would know that this isn’t just about Kruse or Paleo or CT. I’m just not happy. That’s why I’m spouting off on the internet. But that doesn’t negate the fact that I’m just not seeing results.
So I’m done with this.
This blog may or may not continue.
I don’t know what’s next.
I suspect I’m still looking for health, and I’ll probably continue this blog in that pursuit. Maybe I’ll be like the people on Facebook who record how many steps they climbed that day or how many pounds they lifted. Maybe I’ll let you watch as I try the next diet du jour.
I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I do know I’m done with this phase of my quest for health.