Well, I have not stopped eating like an idiot yet.
I know, not very nice language. I know I should speak more kindly about myself…whatever, I’m speaking from the heart. And honestly, sometimes I can be an idiot.
Yesterday I barked at a teenager for poor customer service. I felt really low after that. That’s not something I do when I’m feeling good…and I’ve brought on an aggressive, impatient mood again by eating the wrong things. It’s hard to avoid them, but I could be doing better with the planning so I don’t get in situations where I’m starving with nothing to eat. Then again, when you can only eat about 5 things it’s hard to do – am I really going to bring kale soup along with me when I go grocery shopping?
Ok, I’ll stop being the victim. I have a great life. I just need to plan better.
I have not been prioritizing my health at all for several weeks, and it’s interesting to see what’s happening. Let’s move on to the science:
What does this graph tell me?
- The yeast protocol had no effect.
- The elimination diet did have an effect but was unsustainable because very few things made it through the testing phase and the diet remained extremely limited.
- Blood sugar (and also inflammation?) goes up and down with weight, regardless of eating low carb or not.
- I’m headed in the wrong direction at the moment.
Around June 1st I started reacting to almost everything and also started having a very hard time sticking to only the safe foods I had identified (kale soup and chicken, mostly). I think I was starting to react to things previously determined to be safe, actually.
Now, it’s been maybe a month of eating…kind of whatever. I’m not overeating or eating past full…but I’m also not tracking calories. I’m having new symptoms lately:
- Swollen, sore tongue
- Joint pain
- Enlarged lymph glands that come and go
I’m managing to make myself sicker.
I know eating a very high protein breakfast has helped in the past, and honestly I’ve been skipping breakfast lately and getting very sloppy – just not planning at all. So it really is time to stop goofing off and start paying attention and prioritizing myself again.
I’m not really an idiot. I’m just sick.