Three days ago I took 5 drops of Turpentine on a sugar cube. A few hours later I took some activated charcoal to help with detoxification of any killed organisms. A few hours after that I started having heart palpitations. 3 days later, I’m still having them.
I’ve become disillusioned with this process. I’m tired of getting nowhere, of having so little to show for my efforts, my discomfort, my financial expense. I have thrown out the rest of the Humaworm, the Turpentine, and about 50 other supplements sitting in my supplement grave yard. I threw out all prescription meds that had piled up – Armour, Hydrocorisone, Metformin – and I’ve kept only my hypertension meds. I hope to get rid of them too, but they’re doing something I need so they can stay for now. I have a doctor’s appointment scheduled for Friday, which I’ll keep in order to renew those scripts, but other than that I’m done. Done with docs, done with silly expensive supplement protocols. Done with paying people to help fix my health.
I’ve been decluttering the house. The supplements, my daughter’s room, my closet. I told my CSA farmer to donate the rest of my summer share. I can’t eat vegetables and my family won’t eat most of them. Don’t need to clutter the house with squash anymore. I love when the family leaves the house so I can sneak more crap into donation bags.
I continue to have hot flashes that take my breath away. They’re way more than just getting warm. They make me feel like I’m suffocating and angry. They make me sweat embarrassingly. All I can do is grit my teeth and get through it.
I feel like shit every day.
Does anyone still read this?