Don’t put ghee in your BPC

For whatever reason, ghee is not a good substitute for butter when making Bulletproof Coffee.  It doesn’t blend well, and is like drinking an oil slick.  I regretfully had to dump the whole thing.

Macros for yesterday:


I stayed as low as I could on protein, and still 91 grams.  Fucking hunger.

I’m annoyed.

Learning the Hard Way

Had CB #15 on Saturday.  It was 61 deg F going in, 63 when I came out after 30 minutes, with skin temps of 64.  It felt cold…started shivering at about 20-25 minutes.  It’s not as much fun when I shiver in the water.  It wasn’t too bad warming up afterwards though – took an hour total, I think.  I think this is the first time I’ve actually shivered in the water…I have shivered after the tub a few times.

So we got our ice problems solved, I think.  Bought a freezer on Craigs List for $100 – David drove about an hour and a half each way to get it, and then brought it home and cleaned it up for me.  Love that man.  Anyway, it’s big enough to hold lots of gallons of water.  I figure I’ll freeze 5 or 6 gallons and put them in the tub in the morning – then it’ll be nice and cold when I get home from work.  It’s time to get the tub down to 50 deg.  At the price of bagged ice, this thing will pay for itself in 25 days.  Plus I can use it to store meat that I buy in bulk and hopefully pay less for it per pound.

Yesterday I felt like crap.  I tried to follow the Dave Asprey Bulletproof Coffee plan – nothing but coffee in the morning. I even have Dave’s Upgraded Coffee beans to give it a real test.  Drank 2 big mugs of the stuff, with lots of butter and coconut oil in it…and I was hungry an hour later.  Didn’t bother waiting till lunch…I just ate, because I wasn’t about to be hungry for 5 or 6 hours.  Even after eating I felt like eating more.  I ate a bunch of stupid junk like an entire 86% chocolate bar (like 3 oz) and some french fries.  I have no interest in eating a bunch of crap normally anymore…this experience really supports the power of the BAB.  Back on track this morning – 9oz of pastured pork and mushrooms sauteed in ghee.  Ah…I feel much better.  No more coffee for breakfast.  I don’t care what’s in it.

I’ve gotten sloppy lately by eating dairy (cheese – a few oz a week) and regular butter, as well as onions and other nightshades on occasion.  I need to stop that.  I felt sick to my stomach yesterday.  Just meat and veggies for a while.  I think I’ll even cut out the recreational coconut oil/cream for a little while.

Dr. K says that when you’re Leptin Sensitive it doesn’t matter how many calories you eat because your body will get rid of the excess through heat.  It does matter how many calories you eat when you’re Leptin Resistant, however, as the body isn’t that efficient.  Colder water, fewer overall calories.  These are my immediate goals for now.  I have a lot of damage to undo, and I believe these to be the right way to do it.

CT – Day 2

Just finished my second CT session.  I again used the Cryo Cuff that I mentioned in my last post.  I did three 6-minute exposures to cold, as follows:


  • Face: 95 degrees F
  • Cuff: 46 degrees F

After 6  minutes:

  • Face: 64 degrees F
  • Cuff: 48 degrees F

After another 6 minutes:

  • Face: 64 degrees F
  • Cuff: 54 degrees F

After another 6 minutes:

  • Face: 67 degrees F
  • Cuff: 60 degrees F

So it doesn’t really look like I’ll be able to get my skin temp low enough using this fun contraption, although as I mentioned I do like that I can breath while doing the CT and I don’t have to get all wet.  Tomorrow I’ll do actual face dunks.

So regarding the Bulletproof Coffee experiment…It did not help me with hunger at all.  I ate the same breakfast I would have eaten without the 500+ calorie coffee, and still got really hungry 6 hours later.  I also didn’t feel terribly energetic.  Maybe because I was using crappy coffee beans.  I’m looking forward to try the official “Upgraded Coffee“.

I don’t think I’ll be counting calories after all.  I’m too busy, and frankly, I don’t feel like it.

I have a cold.

And I have to work.

Till tomorrow.

Getting Cold

I started the cold thermogenesis (CT) protocol yesterday.  I did it in sort of an unusual way though, due to a pretty cool coincidence.  There’s a thrift shop in town that my husband and I go to every couple weeks or so.  I’ve been known to call it the “magic” thrift shop because whatever I really need seems to magically appear there.  We went there yesterday, right after I decided and announced on here that I was going to start the CT protocol.  We found this:

It’s an ice-water cast sort of system – you fill the bucket with ice water and attach the cuff to the bucket via the hose to fill the cuff with ice-cold water.   It’s meant to be wrapped around your knee (to treat knee injuries) but as you can see the pad is sort of doughnut shaped and fits nicely right onto my face if I’m lying down, with a hole in the middle to breathe through.  And the best part…it only cost $6 at the thrift shop (it retails at Amazon for $80).

So I tried it yesterday after I got home (and after eating dinner).  I also used the handy Infrared Thermometer I bought a few weeks ago in anticipation of eventually starting CT.  This thermometer is great – you aim it at whatever surface area you want the temperature of (skin, water, knee cuff, etc) and press a button to measure.  Super easy.

So I did three 5-minute sessions with the Cryo Cuff on my face.  This is in place of face-dunking, which is what the protocol actually says to do.  I may try face dunking today for the sake of comparison, but I think this was effective for the purposes of starting the cold adaptation process.  Here were my numbers for my first session:


  • Skin temp: 91 degrees F
  • Cuff temp: 46 degrees F

After 5 minutes of CT:

  • Skin temp: 66 degrees F
  • Cuff temp: 70 degrees F

Changed water out for colder water (took 3-4 minutes), then CT for 5 minutes, then

  • Skin temp: 66 degrees F
  • Cuff temp: 51 degrees F

Break for 2-3 minutes, then 5 more minutes CT, then:

  • Skin temp: 66 degrees F
  • Cuff temp: 53 degrees F

I think maybe I didn’t let the water chill enough before the first 5 minute session, because it warmed up really quickly.  In any case, it seems my skin temp will get down to about 66 degrees using the cuff.  I think that’s an ok starting  place, and my face was certainly red after each 5-min session.  The advantage to the cuff is that I don’t have to come up for air and I can leave it exposed to the cold much longer.  I need to read through Dr. K’s forums and see how cold skin temps typically get during the face-dunking part of the protocol.

I felt slightly nauseated while applying the cold packs yesterday, and last night I felt really warm when I first lay down to sleep.  Probably placebo effect at this point. My sleep was otherwise typical for me – some waking during the night, but in general I slept about 8 hours.

I think it would be interesting also to track my calories eaten for a few days.  I’ve started drinking Bulletproof Coffee in the mornings, which is about 500 calories all by itself, in addition to my normal BAB.  If I can manage to do so I’m going to track my calories for the next week and also watch my weight as I enter the CT world.  More data = good.

Today’s weight: 185.8 (about 7 pounds down from when I started the Leptin Rx in February).

Today’s calories so far:  1288 (7 oz beef, 2 pastured eggs, 3T coconut oil, 3T grass-fed butter, and coffee).

And it’s only 7:00AM!!!

I’ve already eaten what weight watchers says you should eat for an entire day!!!

Part of the reason I want to discuss my calories is to demonstrate that calories, if they’re the right kind, are not going to make you fat.  (I know the 3 people who read this blog probably already know that, but one day maybe someone like my mom will stumble across it and find it educational.) Notice there were no carbohydrates in my breakfast…so according to Gary Taubes and other low-carb researchers, my body will be literally unable to store any of this 1200 calories as fat.  It’s possible I won’t lose weight (if there’s no calorie deficit) but I won’t gain weight.  I also want to see how long before I become hungry again.

Onward with my N=1.


OMG.  I just tried Bulletproof Coffee.

It’s fabulous!

Here’s the recipe, quoted from Dave Asprey’s site:


  • Start with 500 ml (2 mugs) of black coffee brewed with mold-free beans (important)
  • Add 2 Tbs (or more, I prefer 80 grams, about 2/3 of a standard stick of butter) of Kerry Gold or other UNSALTED grass-fed butter
  • Add 30 grams of MCT oil for max energy, weight loss and brain function (optional if you have none)
  • Blend with a pre-heated hand blender, Magic Bullet, or (best) counter top blender until there is a creamy head of foam

For other dumb Americans (like myself) who are easily confused by the metric system,  here’s what I put into it:

  • 2 mugs of black coffee (I ordered the mold-free beans but until I get them I’m just using whatever coffee is in my kitchen.  Hard to believe this could actually get better.)
  • 3 Tbs unsalted grass-fed butter
  • 2 Tbs coconut oil

After drinking half of it I reblended the remainder with about a teaspoon of cocoa powder and 1/2 teaspoon of Truvia (erythritol).  It was even more like a gourmet coffee drink with these added, but I probably won’t use them in the future, as I liked the regular recipe just as much.

How come the butter and oil don’t separate from the coffee?

It was delightful.

A Revision to the Plan

I’ve been thinking a lot.

What would my life look like if I just stopped trying to help everybody for once? If I just worried about myself and my daughter, and just respected the choices that others make without trying to influence anyone? I’d certainly have a lot more time and energy.  I think I’m going to give it a try.

There’s something else I’m going to try.  Not being so nice.  Yesterday I had a conflict with a staffer who refused to run the behavior plan I wrote.  She complained that her paperwork prevented her from completing the 60-second task I was asking her to do, and then proceeded to argue with me about it for 15 minutes.  I got the irony of this; I don’t think she did. In any case, she’s going to be really tired of seeing me every day harping on her to run the program.  I might actually enjoy torturing her with my presence.  Anyway, I got a rise out of her because weeks of couching all of my instruction in niceness had gotten me nowhere.  When I finally just said to her what I wanted her to do, with no fluff, she didn’t want to, and there was a conflict afoot.

So no more unsolicited helping.  And no more nice.

Another plan revision is in the works.  There are some elements of the leptin reset I’m struggling with.  I eat about 65 grams of protein and often 1-3 tablespoons of additional fat for breakfast.  It keeps me content for about 6 hours.  Then I get really hungry.  That hasn’t gotten better over the last 9+ weeks.  Also, I’m fairly ravenous by dinner time because in order to get comfortably through the afternoon I have to eat a LOT at lunch – almost as much as at breakfast.  Lunch time for me is my chance to be social with friends – it is not socially acceptable for a 5’4″ woman with 40-50 pounds to lose to eat that much during lunch.  So I have a normal person’s lunch (like a salad with chicken on it, hold all the cheese, croutons, crappy dressing and tomatoes), and then I’m starving by 4:00.  So I’m wondering if maybe a different approach might be the ticket.

Like more fat.

I want to try a mix of the Bulletproof Diet with the Leptin Rx.  Basically it would be a higher fat version of the Leptin Rx.  I know the body can turn protein into glucose, but I don’t think it turns fat into glucose.  I need to research this a little more, actually, but maybe this is why I’m not losing weight.  Too much emphasis on protein, not enough on fat.  I think Jack Kruse is a brilliant guy, but I want to tweak the program and see how it goes for a few days.  I’m tired of being hungry.  I want to never be hungry.  And I want to lose weight.  The 2-3 pounds of weight I lost this week?  Back on.

I ordered some of Dave Asprey’s mold-free “upgraded coffee“.

Should be a fun experiment.

I am feeling better today.  Thanks for the supportive comments.