Depressed today. Ate starches several days this week. I’ve been feeling dull the last few days, and today it’s full-on depressed. I’m sure it’s because of the starches…because this is what happens. But you know what? I’d really like to be able to eat a slice of home-cooked gluten free bread now and then without it having such a dramatic effect on my mood. I’m tired of having to stick to such a restrictive diet in order to feel ok.
After reading this post over at Free The Animal, I’m asking myself if my current restrictive diet (basically just dairy, coconut oil, butter, meat, eggs, fruit, juice, seafood (1x a week), liver (1x a week), and sometimes chocolate) is really just symptom management. I feel great when I’m able to stick to it for a string of consecutive days, but eating the same 9-or-so things is monotonous and isolating. I don’t feel like I can eat at restaurants or sit down to meals with my family, because most often I’m having something weird like juice and cheese for dinner.
Again, though – I feel great when I can stick to this. But as I’ve said before, a diet is only as good as your ability to stick with it long term. I can’t stick to sweet drinks and cheese for the rest of my life.
So I’m wondering if my gut needs some serious help. Why the hell can’t I eat regular foods and still feel ok (and by regular foods I don’t mean the Standard American Diet – I mean a daily serving of gluten-free bread, potatoes, or a salad). I don’t want to get into the details of my bowel health or function, but things in that department are inconsistent, and depend greatly on eating raw carrots. Miss a day or two of those and I’m not doing well.
I’m considering doing a Metametrix GI Effects test, to test for digestive system problems. Unfortunately you need a doc to order it, and my insurance covers NOTHING unless I’ve had greater than $12,000 worth of illness in one year, so we’re looking at probably $600-700 dollars, between doctors visits and testing.
Hm….the tax man just took all my money. Maybe I’ll just continue on, avoiding things that trigger symptoms.
Back to no starches. Maybe I’ll feel better by Monday.
It occurs to me that I should really put some effort into learning how to cook with the few ingredients that make me feel awesome so I can learn to tolerate a restrictive diet. I’ll share the recipes I come up with.