Ok, I seem to have turned a corner on the depression.  Last night I was able to get up and be productive.  People keep asking if I’m excited about moving to California.  I’ve tried various responses.  I’ve tried honesty:  “No, not yet.  I’m too busy being sad about leaving people.”  I’ve tried optimism:  “I think I will be soon.  I’m just too focused right now on what needs to be done.”  I’ve tried outright lying: “Yes!” (<– not convincing when said with a shaky voice.)  Bottom line is this – I’m not excited about moving.  Right now it feels like a plan that is completely out of my control and that could take any number of bad turns.  The best case scenario is that we love it out there and we do well at our jobs.  The worst case is that we come back.  That’s not so bad.  I guess the real worst case is that we get buried in an earthquake.  That might be bad.  But unlikely.

Got my results from Life Line Screening.  The testing they did indicate I am not terribly unehealthy in some respects.  I do NOT appear to have lots of plaque buildup in my arteries, nor do I have atrial fibrillation, an aortic aneurysm, osteoporosis, or peripheral artery disease.  Yay! 

I did have a cavity filled at the dentist last week, however. 

Lots of work left to do before leaving in 2 days.




I lied in my last post…well, that’s not true…I didn’t lie.  I was just wrong.  I work this week and then we go to see my family…and then I work next week and then we see David’s family…and then we leave.  Only 1.5 weeks of work left.

I’ve been quickly getting in all of my maintenance medical appointments while I have comprehensive medical coverage with a very small copay.  Today I’m doing a Life Line Screening that I’ve been meaning to do for a few years now.  It uses ultrasound technology to evaluate for stroke (carotid artery), atrial fibrillation, abdominal aortic aneurysm, peripheral arterial disease, and osteoporosis.  This actually isn’t covered by insurance but I just want to do it to get baseline data and they happen to be offering it in my area this week.  Tomorrow I’m having an eye exam so I can order more contact lenses.  Then Monday I’m going to the dentist.  Insurance with my new job is an HSA – a Health Savings Account.  That basically means a very high deductible.  No incentive financially to do preventitive care, so getting it all done now.  I also ordered 2 months worth of hormones.  I hope it’s a smooth transition to a new doc when I get out there.

Yesterday I ate shrimp and chopped clams cooked in bacon fat for lunch (with an almond cookie) and then for dinner I had cocoa crack.  Not very nutritious and not optimal, but that’s what I wanted.  And some chicken.

  • Weight this morning: 184.6
  • Fasting blood sugar: 94
  • Breakfast this morning: hamburger patty, cod, and eggs.