I still feel a little “off”. Until 2 days ago, it really seemed like my body was regulating itself and becoming very predictable. I would get tired at 9:30 and get up around 6, eat at predictable times, and my moods varied little from baseline. The last two days, however, not so much. I haven’t been getting tired at 9:30 or 10:00. I’ve been forcing myself to go to bed anyway, but I’m not really tired, and I stay awake in bed for a while. I’ve been hungry at odd times…like an hour and a half after dinner last night. And I ate at least 50 grams of protein at dinner. I know I don’t have to, but I did because that’s what it took to satisfy me. I had a horrible mood swing yesterday…not unlike my normal horrible mood swings that I get now and then, but certainly no better…and it took me a while to snap out of it. And I had not much energy yesterday either…I’ve been a burning torch of energy lately…and yesterday I felt like…well, my normal tired self.
I don’t know if this is a normal part of the process or if I’ve started doing something wrong. I’m going to keep going…I seriously have never had so much hope that I could actually look and feel better than I have since I learned about the Leptin Rx. I’m going to see this through no matter what.
In the interest of figuring out what might have me off track, here’s a list of my “transgressions” over the past week. Maybe one of them is causing things to be off:
1. I drank alcohol on Friday – 2 glasses of wine before/with dinner.
2. I ate an almost-sugar-free cookie yesterday. I’m avoiding everything that tastes sweet right now and I did eat one of the cookies I made for David. It had about 6 grams of carbohydrate, and I did have it with a meal so the blood sugar reaction was muted by lots of protein and fat, but still…it’s off my plan.
3. I’ve been eating some dairy. I’ve had a piece of cheese every other day or so. It’s not that I need it or even particularly miss it…it’s just in the way sometimes! Like, it’s sitting there on my hamburger all innocently…and rather than push it out of the way I just eat it. I’ll stop this.
4. I’ve had some tomatoes. Dr. K. says no nightshades unless you have a spectacular HDL cholesterol. I don’t. No more salsa, or tomatoes on salads. I haven’t purposely put tomatoes on salads, but I haven’t avoided them if they’re sitting on there. Like the cheese! I’ll stop this too. Geez, me…seeing this list growing I’m realizing what a cheater I am!
I think that’s about it. I’ll try to resolve these dietary dalliances and see where it leaves me.
I’m also not weighing myself any more. I was reading on Dr. Kruse’ blog last night that the reason you shouldn’t weigh yourself is because it can raise cortisol levels and actually slow your weight loss. Well that makes sense. Get on the scale, get disappointed (which is predictable, as weight fluctuates), stress about it just a little all day (why why why??? I’m doing everything right!!!), cortisol goes up and blocks fat burning. Love it! So no more weighing. Well…I suppose I’ll weigh once a week. Let’s say Tuesday mornings. I’ll chant and be mindful once a week to manage the stress.